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Don't leave me in all this pain Don't leave me out in the rain Come back and bring back my smile Come and take these tears away I need your arms to hold me now The nights are so unkind Bring back those nights when I held you beside me Ginny’s feet gave way to the violent trembling of her body and she sank down onto the floor, still clutching the letter that had turned her life upside down. How could a single piece of paper destroy all her dreams? How could he have done this to her? And today of all days? No, this couldn’t happen to her today. Not today! Fate couldn’t be that cruel to her, having given her a chance to find some happiness and then so suddenly taking it away. Un-break my heart Say you'll love me again Un-do this hurt you caused When you walked out the door And walked outta my life Un-cry these tears I cried so many nights Un-break my heart, my heart She gazed at the letter again through red, tear filled eyes, willing it to give her some answers. Willing it to be all untrue and some great big prank. Gin, I can’t tell you in words just how much I love you. I love you and need you as much as every breath I take. You run through my veins like my own blood. All I have ever wanted is to be with you, as you brought a completeness to my life that I never felt before, that I never felt was possible. Throughout the time I have known you I have always found you there for me. When I was lonely you gave me company, when I was sad you shared my grief, when I was discouraged you gave me courage and when I was frightened you gave me comfort. I have never been able to give you any sort of happiness. Ever since we have been together there has always been some danger to you and your family. All I have ever given you is worry, fear, sleepless nights and tears and more tears. I had thought that when it was all over I could spend my life making it up to you and showing you just how much I love you. But it was not meant to be. It seems that I carry a curse, no matter whatever I do or wherever I go I always seem to hurt the people I love. I cannot be near you anymore, Ginny, I am too dangerous. I don’t want to pull you into the darkness that is invading my life, which has always been a part of my life. I could not bear it if I ever hurt you, it would surely kill me. I want you to forget about me, Gin. I am not good enough for you. You deserve someone who will love you and respect you and give you all the happiness in the world. As much as I want I cannot be that person anymore. I cannot do anything for you, but I can leave so that you can start your life again. I know that you will not be able to understand my actions, my love, but I could see the pain in your eyes. I could see the despair and fear. It was like splinters in my heart and every time I looked into your eyes I just wanted to die. Because I knew that it was I that caused all that pain. I just want you to be happy, Ginny. Nothing else matters to me. I sometimes think that my purpose in this life was to defeat Voldemort. Maybe I was never meant to love you like I do. Maybe I have fulfilled my purpose in life and there is nothing more to do for me. I really don’t know. I just know that I want to find a small corner in the world where I can spend the rest of my days in some peace. Promise me that you will be happy. Promise me that you won’t waste your life on me. You are like a ray of sunshine, Ginny. You are meant to be happy and to bring happiness to all those around you. Sunlight and darkness are never good together. As long as you are happy I will be happy. Every smile on your face will bring a smile to my face. Every time you laugh I will feel your joy. I want you to be everything you can be. I want you to marry a wonderful man that will keep you happy and have loads of little redheaded children. I want you to grow to an old and ripe age and be remembered as someone great. Do it for me. Do it because I love you and it is what I want. Even though I am gone I will always love you. As long as I live I will never love another. I know that this is not goodbye, my love. We will meet again. I don’t know if it will be in the after life or some other life. I just know that this life will be too short to know you and love you. I will live my life for that moment. Till we meet again. With all my love, Harry. Ginny curled up in a ball on the floor and cried till there were no more tears left. She felt broken and defeated. How could he ever think that she could live without him? That she could ever love another after loving him so completely? Take back that sad word good-bye Bring back the joy to my life Don't leave me here with these tears Come and kiss this pain away I can't forget the day you left Time is so unkind And life is so cruel without you here beside me Why did he think that she could love another when he never could? Didn’t he know that he was a part of her too? Didn’t he know how much she loved him? He was the only man she had ever loved and she had loved him since she was too young to even properly understand what love meant. She was furious with him for doing this to her. For having put her in a position like this. For having left without telling her and expecting her to just accept his decision. But at the same time she was touched to her deepest core that he loved her so much that he was willing to give up everything for her happiness. She knew that he loved her and had needed her. She knew that she was all that had kept him sane during those long terror filled nights. But he hadn’t cared a single bit about his needs and wants. He had put her needs and wants above his, risking his very sanity while doing so. He had left everything he loved for her, his friends, his home, and his very identity. Even though it was Harry’s selflessness that had got her into her current position she couldn’t hate him for it. It was a part of who her Harry was. He had always put the needs of others above himself and would always do so. Don't leave me in all this pain Don't leave me out in the rain Bring back the nights when I held you beside me Un-break my Un-break my heart, oh baby Come back and say you love me Un-break my heart Sweet darling Without you I just can't go on Can't go on No, she would not let him leave like this. She would find him even if he was hidden in the ends of the world and she wouldn’t rest till she had. You can run away from everybody and everything, Harry Potter, but not from me. I am a part of you and you are a part of me and you can’t run away from yourself. I will find you. And I too will live for the day. Till we meet again… |
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Ok a lot of people asked me to write a sequel to "I Bid You… Adieu," so I will. But it will be slow as I have to also write The Darkest Hour. Please read I bid you… adieu, before you read this. |